5w6d Exhaustion

This time feels so much different than the others. I'm so tired all the time. No morning sickness yet but the last couple of days the nausea has kicked in. 

Hoping this is all a good sign. 

1817.8!

Holy Shit!  My beta today came in at 1817.8!  That is a doubling time of 37 hours.  So excited and happy.  No more beta draws for me.  My progesterone is a little low at 12.70, but because I'm taking 700 mg/day of progesterone suppositories, my RE told me not to worry because that's enough to sustain a pregnancy.  We are going to increase my PIO (progesterone in oil) injections from 1 cc/day to 1.5cc/day.

Next stop is my viability ultra sound on June 4th.  I will be 6w3d.  Hoping to see a heartbeat.  That is when we will find out if there is one baby Moreau or two.  I think one.

Today is a good day and I'm going to give myself permission to enjoy it.

Progression!

I've now made it farther than with my three chemical pregnancies.   Third beta draw tomorrow. Hoping it's my last. 

Feeling ill today. Haven't thrown up with my stomach feels off.  Maybe that's a good sign. 

Still Pregnant

Took this today with no hold. I'm still pregnant and my hcg has increased since Weds. That's good news. I have one FRER left. I'm going to take it on Monday. 

121.5

Second draw results are in....  121.5 means I exactly doubled in 48 hours.  They like to see it double in 48 to 72 hours, so I will take it!

This was a big milestone for me because my last three bfp's, the second draw either showed a decrease, or it didn't increase enough, in other words...  chemical.  However, this time was different.  This time my body did what it is supposed to do.

Next draw is on Tuesday.  The goal is 960.  Actually, the goal is >1,000 so I don't have to have any more beta draws until my OB orders them.

I'm planning to enjoy my weekend.  The new X-Men movie comes out and Bri and I have a movie date on Saturday afternoon.

For now, I am pregnant.  Right now, I am exactly where I should be in the process.

Snuggle in there, my sweet rainbow.

Prayers from a friend...

The below was a message I got from a friend today.  It made my heart smile. 

Okay okay. I know you're not a religious person so when I tell you all of this just replace God with universe. :)

Anyway, last year after I lost the quads, a bird built a nest and laid four eggs in my bathroom window. I became obsessed with these birds as if they were my lost babies. I watched them every day. I had a dream they hatched and Lo and behold, they were hatched the next day. On bereaved Mother's Day. To me, that was God speaking to me. Telling me new life was coming. Old Indian folklore says "when feathers appear, angels are near". I was pregnant two months later with Miles. 

Well, momma bird came back and just laid her eggs! There were only three and I was weirdly bummed. But I still thought it was neat she came back. Anyway, I spent some time in prayer after you announced your beta today and I went to check on the eggs and there are now four!!!! There were three just yesterday and the days before. Then I got to thinking. The eggs showed up the day you announced your bfp and the fourth appeared on beta day! I pray so hard these baby birds are yours this year and you get the baby you so deserve. Please know I want this so badly for you and am rooting you and your baby/babies on!!!!

11dp5dt

Today's test, 3rd pee of the day with no hold.   Hoping this is good news for tomorrow's beta. 

60.3!

All we needed was to be >50 and we are at 60.3.  First hurdle crossed.  Very cautiously optimistic.  I haven't tested again because I have no tests in the house and Bri is telling me to stop.  Nancy, the nurse from ORM told me the exact same thing when she called me with my results.  I guess I will listen to them, but at some point, when we are >1,000, I'm going to do a digital.  I just need to see those words "Pregnant".

I have my second draw on Wednesday.  our goal is 125!  Fingers, toes, eyes and hair crossed.

Beta tomorrow

Here is today's test. Definitely getting darker. I'm so nervous about the beta tomorrow that I could just crawl into bed and hide. They will want it >50, I'm not sure it will be. Last time was 126 but it was on the way down so, hopefully, even if it's lower, it's on the way up.   I'm not doing more than two draws. 

If I get a good number tomorrow, I will call and make an appointment with the MFM. 

FPL at 5dp5dt

Let's see how this goes. Please be my rainbow baby. Please. 

PUPO

FET went well. Slight hiccup before the procedure, in that was bladder wasn't full, even though I drank the 20oz of water as they told me. So, for 30 minutes in the FET room, I had to pound water to get my bladder to fill so they could see everything on the u/s. 

We transferred 2 blasts. One was a hatched grade 1 and the other a hatching grade 2. I don't know what that means, but they told me they were wonderful quality. 

So now, we wait. I'm on bed rest for yesterday and today.  Lucy is sticking close, as bed is her fave place in the world. 

Getting Closer

We are just a few days away from our FET. Bri admitted he was nervous. I am too. 

Please let this be our rainbow(s).

1dpo and Happy Birthday to Me!

Today I am 1dpo, since on Friday, we will transfer two 5 day old frosties. Crazy to think about. 

It's also my 43rd birthday. Yay me. Hoping for the best birthday gift in the world. 

And, it's Cinco de Mayo!  Ole. 

The Home Stretch

Started progesterone in oil shots today. This next week has a very complicated med schedule. Every day is different.